Taking care of your artistic self is your responsibility.

Taking care of your artistic self is your responsibility.

No one else will do it for you. At the most critical junctures, most and sometimes no one will believe in you enough to support what you know you have to do. But I don’t think faith is knowing 100%. It’s more the kind of knowing one has when hitting a tennis ball and knowing it will hit it’s mark. It is still and small. For me, faith is having to act despite my doubts. The unsupportive may be well intended friends or family members. They don’t mean any harm but they might not get it. And maybe even I don’t have the absolute certainty to do what I know I need to do either. It is especially hard to have popular support for something you also know you shouldn’t be doing. Getting approval for doing the wrong thing is not good. The devil is not an ugly monster leering and pulling me toward something bad. The devil is pretty attractive and tells me easy answers that may be problems waiting to happen. The devil doesn’t want me to be me.

Everyone has doubt. Most of us would love to have the certainty of clear cut answers mapped out for us . But for me, the core of the answer is mostly based on listening inside. It feels right. It doesn’t feel right. Logic only goes so far. A financial advisor was talking to me about a money decision I was to make. The advisor said “why do you pay me for advice if you don’t take it?” I said ”if we were to go back to when I was deciding to do this for a living, you wouldn’t have advised that either.” Don’t get me wrong, hearing advice is good but never undervalue a genuine feeling about something. There is a moment of truth for everyone. Even painters.

Then there are those rare people who believe in you. Those people may sometimes be only one person. That is the person who loves you and you need to value that person.

I’m going to drink my coffee and try to make better choices and go paint. I’ve been a little off lately and I need to sharpen. No one makes you do it. Some people are even irritated by your doing it.

Do it anyway.

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